Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Inspiring Words

Hi, everyone! I'm back to feeling my normal self and don't have to go to my next chemo until one week from today and so have some time to enjoy feeling well.

It's been a bit of a rough day emotionally for me. I met Liesl, a teacher friend from school, at Starbucks. We talked for almost an hour and a half. It was a wonderful time, but when we left I was headed home and she was headed up to school to get ready for next week. I was so jealous. Then, when I came home, I exchanged emails with the teacher who is going to take over my class for the second half of the year. She is so sweet and caring and enthusiastic. I know she is going to do a wonderful job and that the kids will love her. But, again, it just left me feeling sad.

I've joined a listserve that is made up of women and families who have or are battling Inflammatory Breast Cancer and through this list I've learned that it is possible to be a long-term survivor of this disease. They don't really talk of curing it, but there are members of the list who have been without evidence of disease for over ten years. This gives me so much hope. Many members have also talked about how the chemotherapy part of the treatment plan is the worst and that the surgery and radiation afterwards aren't nearly so bad in comparison. This is also very encouraging. If everything continues to go smoothly for me and according to plan, I should be finishing up radiation this summer. If that is so, I am thinking I will be able and ready to return to the classroom next year. Focusing on that helps me deal with missing it so much right now. When I first started researching IBC and the prognosis, I didn't think I was ever going to be able to return. Now, I know that there is a good chance I will be able to.

I'm always amazed at how, just when I'm feeling low, something happens to pick me up again. That happened again today. My friend and neighbor, Mary Lopez, sent over a Christmas present and with the card she enclosed something called The Optimist's Creed. It is written by C.D. Larson. The words were just what I needed to hear. I asked Mary and she said it was fine to share them on the blog. I think you all will find them as inspiring as I have.

The Optimist's Creed

Promise yourself:
To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet.
To make all your friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best, and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To give so much time to improving yourself that you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of yourself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.
To live in the faith that the world is on your side, so long as you are true to the best that is in you.

Love you all tons!
Until next time,
Martha

6 comments:

Jim said...

Martha:

Thanks for sharing your news and for the Optimists' Creed. I'm going to make the Creed my New Year's resolution.

Happy New Year!

Jim

N-Search of Peace said...

It amazes me....brings me to my knees....how words can change a way of ones walking upon this earth....

A creed that E-V-E-R-Y human being should hold in their heart....

For this New Year, may we all, always let kindness fall out of our mouths....

I am so proud of you my dear friend....hoping that we can be together again soon....

N-Peace

Joe Hitzel said...

Martha,
I had not realized that you had updated your blog. My bad...

My heart breaks for you as you ride the emotional roller coaster in the ups and downs each day as you/we make this journey. I know how painfully sad it is for you to not be in your classroom, working with all of your students.

The Optimist's Creed that Mary shared is awesome. As you shared, a great reminder of the "pick me up" that we all need. I am glad that it found you when you needed it. And shared it with everyone!

With all my love, Joe!
XOXO

velvet brick said...

Hi Martha,
What a wonderful post...and the words are so true within the creed. I appreciate you sharing them. I can only try to imagine how difficult it is to not be in your room, making plans, working with your students, etc. School will wait for you, Martha. It will be there when you come back! And you WILL be back! And what wonderful information you've gotten from your group! I applaud you for finding/seeking out help, information and support. Happy New Year to the Hitzel's!! : )
xox
Carol

The SAB team said...

Martha, I was so happy to hear the news from the members of the list serve! How fantastic is to know that you are thinking about returning to teaching! And that there are so many long-term survivors!

Your Christmas tree is so beautiful, as is your family portrait and your smile. What a big, beautiful smile you have. I was up cleaning SAB's office and was in Joe's office dusting around your pictures and just felt the need to let you know I was thinking about you. I know you are not looking forward to Tuesday, but hang in there!

Here's to a very positive 2009, full of blessings and miracles! With Love, Sheila

The SAB team said...

And one more thing! What inspiring words from the Optimists' Creed. I think I will print them off and keep that at my desk to look at every day! Thanks so much for sharing.

Sheila