Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Kind of a Bummer Day

Hi, everyone. I'm just home from Michael's lacrosse game and my radiation treatment.

Well, we certainly found out why Chapperal is rated #1 in the state. Final score was 13-5. :>( What was even more of a bummer than the loss was for some reason coach didn't play the players who have been first string all season hardly at all, including Michael. Michael has played full minutes except for when they are man-up at every game all season and today got very few minutes. Another starter didn't get any minutes at all. I think coach was feeling a bit panicked about playing Chapperal, who he knew were a high scoring team, and instead of sticking with the kids who have been successful so far this season put in the players that he thought took the most shots. We did take a lot of shots, but obviously not many went in. Obviously Michael was down about the whole thing and so was I.

I forgot about taking a camera to radiation, so no pictures of that.

My CAT scan was canceled today because the machine was down. I will be getting it done tomorrow morning instead. I don't know why, but I am more anxious about this test than almost any I've had in the past. I know my doctors keep telling me they think my breathing problem is related to the lesion on my spine, but I'm so scared that the cancer has spread to my lungs. It's just so very scary to be constantly struggling with my breathing and not being sure what the cause is. I'm thinking because I'm not having the test done until tomorrow, I may not get results until next week. I HATE waiting for test results. Please say lots of prayers and send lots of good thoughts my way tonight and tomorrow. They mean so much to me.

Love you all!
Martha

12 comments:

velvet brick said...

Dear friend, I'm so sorry that your test was postponed...and you are so right about waiting for test results! Ack!!! You have never NOT been in my prayers so no worries on that!! Nerves and apprehension are normal... But we are stronger!! Try to rest tonight... I'm here 24/7...xoxo
Carol

ZueZQue said...

Absolutely!! Will think of you and say may silent prayers for you tomorrow!! Positive thoughts flying across the country!!

We are painting here!! I was up on scaffolding painting the tippy top of our high walls. Took 5 mins for my knees to stop shaking. Looks good though. More tomorrow, so will think of you with every stroke!

Exhausted and heading to bed. Love ya Martha!!! You are incredible!!

I've enjoyed the lacrosse pics, GO MICHAEL!!!

XO,
Sue

NP said...

Ohhh, so sorry for the disappointing lacrosse game AND having the CAT scan delayed. The waiting game is the worst. There are so many of us praying for you so hopefully that can first calm your nerves and then get you good test results . . . in a hurry.
Love & hugs,
Nancy

Mary Monica said...

Dearest Martha,

Thinking of you like crazy today...that all equipment is working and results are speedy. It's OK to be scared. Will send you strong angels today to calm and support you.
love, Mary Monica

Dottie said...

You are ALWAYS on our thoughts, minds, and prayer lists, Martha!! Love ya, Dottie

Jane said...

Happy thoughts and prayers from me too! I also do not enjoy waiting..I think I am a patient person, but waiting for test results in not a strong suite of mine.
I am sorry about the lacrosse game too. That is a bummer.

I hope you have a beautiful Easter Weekend.

Susie of Arabia said...

Hi Martha - I just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and you are always in my prayers. Through all of this you continue to dazzle us with that warm smile of yours - you are an amazing woman. Hugs and Kisses - xox

Lydia said...

Just thinking about you today and thought I'd check out your blog for any updates. I love ya!

N-Search of Peace! said...

My pretty lady!

My love and ((((hugs))) are always around you!

Sorry for the lapse, that the tests results have to be. Hate that part of medicine and health care too.

May your "bummer-days" be less and less and your "happy-days" be more and more!

Love you sweetie!
N-Peace

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slizarraga said...

You are such an inspiration to me. I have learned so much from you. Your strength leaves me speechless. May the lord keep blessing you as you continue your battle... I'll be cheering for you and your family,
love and hugs,
Monica